好了 雷 Okay, Ray,
你正在坐牢 自愿参加蜘蛛头临床试验项目 you are an incarcerated volunteer in the Spiderhead clinical trial program.
在我们开始之前 我需要你同意我注射G-46 Before we begin, I need your permission to administer G-46.
-注射药物？-同意 -Drip on? -Acknowledge.
笑迎春
鬼最擅长画什么？ What was the ghost's favorite fruit?
鬼画葫芦 Boo-berry.
说真的 这太搞笑了 No shit, that's funny.
渔夫最讨厌什么鱼？ What did the magician say to the fisherman?
漏网之鱼 Pick a cod, any cod.
属于你的薯片叫什么？ What do you call cheese that isn't yours?
非你莫属 Nacho cheese.
嘿 雷 接下来这几个不是笑话 而是事实陈述 好吗？ All right, Ray, Ray, these next ones aren't jokes, more just facts, okay?
真的吗？ Oh, yeah?
在1994年的卢旺达大屠杀中 有超过八十万人丧生 In the 1994 genocide in Rwanda, over 800,000 people died.
你被判处… You are serving…
你被判处连续四个终身监禁 You're serving four consecutive life sentences
不得保释 without the possibility of parole.
雷 谢谢你 朋友 你可以离开了 Ray, thank you. You're free to cruise, buddy.
NETFLIX 出品
改编自乔治桑德斯的短篇小说 《逃离蜘蛛头》
最初发表于《纽约客》
前门
蜘蛛头监狱及研究中心
警告：未经许可 严禁入内
今天又是一个美丽的早晨 朋友们、邻居们 Another beautiful morning, friends,
该起床 好好活动活动了 time to rise and really shine.
作为蜘蛛头监狱及研究中心的志愿者 As volunteers in the Spiderhead Penitentiary and Research Center…
你们必须尽自己的职责
请始终遵守基本规则 …you must do your part and practice the golden rules,
不得实施任何身体或语言虐待 冰箱里的食物必须标注名字 no abuse, physical, verbal, or otherwise and label your food in the fridge.
杰夫 请前往码头报到 进行偏远实地测试 Jeff, please report to the dock for remote field testing.
好了 杰夫 今天给你准备了一种新药 Okay, Jeff, we have a new compound for you today.
-注射药物？-如果是N-31就没问题 -Drip on? -If it's N-31.
很好笑 是N-40 同意吗？ Hilarious, N-40. Acknowledge?
同意 Acknowledge.
好的 杰夫 你准备好就开始 Yeah, whenever you're ready, Jeff.
感觉非常不错 It's really nice.
真好 我们可以给你的语言中枢 加点料吗 杰夫？ Oh, boy. Okay if we pep up your language centers, Jeff?
注射药物？ Drip on?
-当然 -同意吗？ -Sure. -Acknowledge?
不好意思 嗯 同意 Oh, sorry. Yeah, acknowledge.
善言素
嘿 抱歉 我来晚了 Hey, sorry, I'm late.
客人都到了 Party's here.
真变态 -Such a creep.
-你去哪里了？-实地调研 -Where you been? -Field trip.
对 你跟艾玛通电话 Oh, right, your phone call with Emma.
不是 是做药物研究 No, uh, drug study.
应该是N-40 N-40, I think.
所有人都出去实地调研过了 只有我没有 They have everyone on these field trips but me.
你才刚来不久 You're still new.
也不是刚来 我很想晒晒太阳 I'm not that new. You know, I'd love some sunshine.
要不要我帮你准备… Can I help you with the…
意大利火腿裹油桃？ Nectarines and prosciutto?
你有什么好帮的？我都搞定了 你来迟了 What you gonna help with? I'm done. You're late.
张大嘴巴 Open up.
好好品尝 全吃下去 Enjoy that. Get it all.
-对 -真好吃 -Yeah. -It's really good.
-好吃吧？-真希望他们能把你留在零食组 -Good, right? -I hope they keep you on snack.
我总说他们让你负责清洁 是浪费了你的才华 I always said they wasted your talents on janitorial.
话可别说得太早哦 我喜欢擦洗东西 都上瘾了 Don't be too sure about that. I've got a bit of a scrub fetish.
-好吧 -那个… -Okay. -Hey…
-你有没有留意到 我们… -像是心有灵犀？ -Did you notice we kinda-- -Finish each other's sentences?
我想说的是需要几个新的碗 I was gonna say, need new bowls.
注射N-40的感觉如何？ So, how was the N-40?
花不是长出来的… Flowers didn't grow…
是雕刻出来的、画出来的 They were sculpted. Painted.
我也想告诉你 但是我正在恢复过来 注射了… I mean, I would tell you about it, but I'm just coming down off the--
-善言素 -对 -Verbaluce. -Yeah.
那种话都到了嘴边 但就是说不出来的感觉 That tip-of-the-tongue feeling when you can't find the right word
那种觉得自己 再也找不到适当的词的感觉？ and you feel like you'll never find the right word again?
对 Yeah.
你傻乎乎的样子挺可爱的 Well, you're cute when you're stupid.
好吧 不过挺可惜的 因为我原本打算今天… Okay, but it sucks because today was the day that…
我有一些话 原本打算今天跟你说的 丽姿 There was something that I was gonna tell you today, Lizzy.
好吧 我们有的是时间 Okay, well, we got time.
嗯 确实 Yes, we do.
我们就只有时间了 All we've got is time.
不错 Okay.
你也了解这种音乐？ What you know about this?
你对此一无所知 You know nothing about this.
那总结一下… So, to sum up…
我很喜欢 I love it.
很美 It's beautiful.
你要带我去哪里？ -Where do you wanna take me? -Hmm.
要不去那座岛吧？就是生产矿泉水的那座岛 What about that island, you know, the one where they make water?
斐济岛？ Fiji?
斐济岛 Fiji.
-我会带你去斐济岛的 -谢谢 -I'll take you to Fiji. -Thank you.
不过需要点钱 Just need a little money.
我们去马克家吧？给他庆祝生日 Can we go to Mark's? For his birthday?
星期二才是他的生日 但他那混蛋会庆祝一整个星期 It was Tuesday, but he's a celebrate-all-week motherfucker. Please?
-拜托了？-得问老大的意见 It was Tuesday, but he's a celebrate-all-week motherfucker. Please?
-拜托了？-得问老大的意见 Gotta ask the boss.
你们俩去好好玩吧 我在这里待着 好吗？ You two go have fun. I'm gonna stay here. Okay?
-我想你 -我更想你 -Miss you. -Miss you more.
你开车没问题？ You cool to drive?
当然 Ice cold.
杰夫！ Oh, Jeff, Jeff, Jeff!
杰夫！ Jeff!
《新英格兰医学杂志》
艾纳斯蒂先生 抱歉 我迟到了 Sorry, I'm late, Mr. Abnesti.
等到你叫我史蒂夫的那天 我都该退休了 I'm gonna retire the day you call me Steve.
一点都不迟 Not late at all.
不过海瑟呢… Heather, on the other hand…
好 正提到她呢 Yeah, speak of the devil.
不好意思 Sorry.
没事 All right.
我太失礼了 介绍两位认识 海瑟 杰夫 Oh, how rude of me. Jeff, Heather. Heather, Jeff.
记录一下 在你们进蜘蛛头监狱之前 或者在这里期间 For the record, either prior to or during your incarceration here at Spiderhead,
你们俩说过话吗？ have you two ever spoken?
-没有 -没有 -No. -No.
是否有过任何互动？ Ever interacted in any way?
我刚才不是说了没有吗？ Did I not just say no?
没有 No.
你觉得怎么样？ So, what do you think?
你在问谁？ Who are you asking?
我在问你们俩 杰夫先说吧 I'm asking both of you. Let's start with Jeff.
好 她看上去不错 Yeah, she seems nice.
你喜欢用这个词 我的意思是她对你的吸引力有多大？ You like that word, but no, I mean, how attractive is she?
怎么了 史蒂夫？你自己看不见吗？ What, Steve, you can't see it for yourself?
麻烦你安静一下 我在问杰夫 她的长相如何？ Can you shut up, please? I'm asking Jeff. How's she looking?
拜托 老兄 Come on, man.
10分为满分 打个分 -A scale of one to ten? -Um…
嗯 7点5分吧 Yeah, she's a seven and a half.
海瑟 你呢？ And, Heather?
他还行 我心情好的话可以给他5分 He's all right. A five on a good day.
你是不是给她注射了实话素？ -Did you give her Honest-Ease?
没 我得先征求同意 你知道的 No, I would have to ask. You know.
我这个人比较难搞 I'm just kind of a bitch.
那我想把我刚才的分数改成8分 Well, then I would like to change my vote to an eight.
好了 杰夫 海瑟 All right, uh, Jeff, Heather,
你们是否同意注射N-40？注射药物？ can I have your permission to administer N-40? Drip on?
同意 Acknowledge.
-行 -海瑟？ -Uh, yeah. -Heather?
天哪 她真烦人 God, she's a pain in the ass.
-同意 -谢谢你 -Acknowledge. -Thank you.
浓情素
来吧 两位 说话 快说话 Come on, guys. Words, words, words.
好的 她现在看起来挺漂亮的 Okay, yeah, she's starting to look pretty good.
我的… Oh, my…
嗯 她现在变得非常漂亮 Yeah, she's… She's looking really, really good.
海瑟？ Heather?
我也有同感 是的 Uh, same. Yeah.
好的 增加善言素 让他们说话 Okay, pump up the Verbaluce, let's get 'em talking.
天哪 她真美 Oh, God, she's so beautiful.
行 别跟我们说 跟对方说 Yeah, don't tell us, tell each other.
你…我的天哪 You're… Oh, my God.
你帅得惊人 你很英俊 我无法形容 You're stunning, you're gorgeous.
对不起 我之前真是瞎了狗眼 Sorry, I didn't see it before.
没关系 你应该 是我这辈子见过的最美的女人 It's okay, you're the most beautiful woman I think I've ever seen in my life.
谢谢你 Thank you.
-是 -我可以… -Yeah. -I could, uh…
-嗯？-我可以… -Yeah? -I could…
你可以什么 杰夫？ You could what, Jeff?
好 Oh, yeah.
我们在拍这段吗？ Are we getting this?
爽 -Oh, yeah.
我的天啊 -Oh, my God.
你们没事吧？ You okay?
有什么好笑的？ What's so funny?
没什么 Nothing.
我之前以为是不可能的 I didn't think it was possible.
什么不可能？ What?
我居然开始喜欢搂抱了 -I'm liking cuddling.
请给我一点这玩意儿 让我回家 Please send me home with some of this shit.
海瑟… Heather…
嗯？ Yes?
我爱你 I love you.
我的天哪 Holy shit.
我也爱你 I love you too.
N-40 太赞了 N-fucking-40, baby.
是啊 不得了了 我们真厉害 Yeah, God damn, we're good.
催情药 The love drug.
金星？ Gold star?
还不行 不 Not yet, not yet. No, no.
我们更感兴趣的它的残留效应 而不是它的药效 We're less interested in what we just saw than the residual effect.
我知道给你的时间不够 但我要你观察这两个人 I realize you're stretched thin, but I need you to observe these two.
他们回去后 在接下来的几个小时 几天内 他们会不会去找对方？ After they come down, in the next hours, days, do they seek contact?
他们共处一室时 是否会表达自己的感觉？ Profess feelings when they're in the same room?
他们是否有非语言性的交流？留意他们的趋同行为 Do they communicate non-verbally? Look for isopraxisms.
就是镜像行为 Uh, mirrored behaviors.
相爱的人会无意识地模仿彼此的举动 People in love unconsciously mimic each other's actions.
比如会同时挠脸或摆弄头发 They scratch their faces, fiddle with their hair at the same time.
是他们下意识的举动 It's like their bodies can't help themselves.
所以你要仔细观察杰夫和海瑟 So watch Jeff and Heather.
我想知道 我想知道爱情能否… I want to know. I want to know, does love…
这样产生的爱情能否持久？ Does this love last?
好了 两位 谢谢你们 Hey, guys, thank you.
非常感谢 说真的 没有你们我们完成不了 Thank you very much, no kidding. We couldn't do it without you.
请记住 你们现在的感觉 Remember, what you're feeling,
这种有时会让人心烦的转变是正常的 the sometimes disquieting transitions are natural.
现在让你们恢复基线状态 以后还会有更多的试验 We're bringing you back to baseline. More to come.
我能回零食组吗？ Am I back on snack?
你可不想知道 相信我 You don't wanna know, trust me.
在集体生活之家 我跟姑娘们 Me and the girls at the group home,
会从便利店偷彩票 we swiped lottery tickets from convenience stores,
一次刮上百张 scratched them a hundred at a time.
看起来我们好像是 用正当方式搞钱 但其实是欺诈 It looked like we were doing honest work, you know, dirt under our nails.
我们并不觉得 偷窃有什么不好的 对吧？ It's not like we thought stealing was bad, right?
没有人比我们更需要钱 因为我们一无所有 No one needed it more than us 'cause we had nothin'.
嗯 Yeah.
有一年平安夜 我们开车四处溜达 This one Christmas Eve, we're drivin' through neighborhoods,
所有人都上教堂去了 everyone's at church.
我们砸开窗户 We're breaking windows,
偷走别人放在圣诞树下面的礼物… stealing presents from under people's Christmas trees…
给 Here you go.
你知道第二天早上发生了什么吗？ Know what happens the next morning?
我们在打开别人的毛衣 电视上正播着《绿毛怪格林奇》 We're openin' up other people's sweaters, The Grinch comes on TV.
天哪 Man.
正好播到他把所有礼物送回去那段 That part where he gives back all the presents?
-我觉得很内疚 -我能想象 -I felt so bad. -Yeah, I bet.
我哭得像个废物一样 I cried like a little punk-ass.
她用科学让我变得盲目
下午好 孩子们 Afternoon, kids.
莎拉 你认识杰夫 杰夫 你也认识莎拉 Sarah, you know Jeff. Jeff, you know Sarah.
你好 Hey.
你们也知道 我们今天的安排很紧凑 As you know, we're wall-to-wall today.
老大正在给我们施压 Boss man's breathing down our neck.
-所以 你们是否… -同意 -So, if it's cool-- -Acknowledge.
嗯 好吧 同意 Yeah, fine. Acknowledge.
我看不下去了 I can't watch.
是莎拉还是两倍剂量？ Sarah or the double dose?
注射了两倍剂量的莎拉 Sarah on the double dose.
我们都是自愿来这里的 马克 We're all here by choice, Mark.
她是不是… Is she…
我觉得应该是 Yeah, I think so.
爽！ -Yes! Yes!
雷 你好吗？ What's up, Ray?
有人用屎在厕所门上乱涂乱画 你说能好吗？ Someone wrote in shit on the bathroom stall doors, that's what.
真恶心 Gross.
我一定会把那个搅屎棍揪出来 希望不是你 I'll find out who's shit-finger. Hope it ain't you.
不是我 It's not.
天啊 你玩这个玩得太好了 我无论做什么都达不到这水平 Damn, I will never be as good at anything as you are with that.
-你喜欢吗？-喜欢 -You like that? -Yeah.
问你一下 有没有药 可以让人忘掉不好的事？ Hey, is there a drug to make you forget shit?
有 那个药就叫老了 Yeah, it's called old age.
我很期待 I'm looking forward to it.
你感觉怎么样？ How you feeling?
还行 有点酸痛 I'm all right. A little sore.
但当时感觉应该非常好吧？ It must've felt pretty good at the time though.
是的 Yeah.
我们可以给你弄点药膏 -We can get you some cream for that.
我没事 不过谢谢你 I'm fine. Thanks, though.
对了 帮个忙 Hey, uh, do me a favor.
做试验的时候 尽量别让女生碰你的随身包 While we're at it, try not to let the girls touch your MobiPak.
也别碰她们的 好吧？ And don't… And don't touch theirs. Okay?
我知道做试验的时候会很疯狂 但是不能碰撞随身包 I know it gets crazy in there, but they're not made for jostling,
可能会导致过度注射 they can flood.
试验对象会失控 You could lose control.
好的 Cool.
对了 马克 Uh, hey, Mark?
什么事？ Yeah?
能把我调离零食组吗？ Can you take me off snack?
出了什么问题吗？跟丽姿处不来？ Was something wrong? Problems with Lizzy?
不是 我只是准备好了想转变一下 Nah, just, I'm ready for a change.
行 好的 Yeah. Okay.
谢了 哥们 Thanks, man.
可恶 God damn it.
我的天啊 Oh, my God.
是丽姿煮的 Lizzy.
她来自西雅图吗？ Is she from Seattle?
亚利桑那州 普雷斯科特 Prescott, Arizona.
看到了吧？杰夫知道 Ah, see? Jeff knows.
大家相熟是件好事 It's cool when folks get acquainted.
对了 我今天早上看了棒球成绩表 Speaking of, I saw the box scores this morning.
你们西雅图水手队连赢了几场 我们改天得组织一场比赛才行 You Mariners are on a bit of a streak. We should pipe in a game later, huh?
好啊 那会很棒 谁跟他们比赛？ Yeah, that'd be great. Who're they playing?
可恶 喂 马克 把这个还回去 Crap. Hey, Mark, return this.
杰夫 请坐 今天的安排又是满满当当的 Uh, Jeff, please take a seat. Another full day ahead.
可惜你不能看新闻头条 要是你能看的话 你会知道 If you could read the headlines, you can't, but if you could,
这个世界比以往更需要我们的帮助 the world needs our help more than ever.
今天同时开两个试验室 Now, we got two rooms running today.
别去关注戴夫 相信我的话 Pay no attention to Dave, trust me.
说真的 相信他的话 Seriously, trust him.
杰夫… Jeff…
好了 你认得她们吗？ All right. Recognize them?
很好笑 That's very funny.
我给你一个选择 这是我想做的试验 I'm gonna present you with a choice. This is what I'm after.
看到这个遥控器吗？ -Mm-hmm. -You see this remote?
假设你可以控制这个按键 给莎拉注射阴郁剂 Let's say, you can slide this button and Sarah gets some Darkenfloxx,
或者控制这个按键 给海瑟注射阴郁剂 or you could slide this button and Heather gets some Darkenfloxx.
看到了吧？你来选择 You see? You choose.
她们的随身包里有阴郁剂？ -They have Darkenfloxx in their MobiPaks?
稍等 Excuse me.
嘿 戴夫 你感觉怎样？ Hey, Dave, how you feeling?
很饿 Hungry.
-他会不会就是搅屎棍？-有可能 -Could he be shit-finger? -Yeah, maybe.
那些食物总得排出去吧 All that food's gotta go somewhere.
我们刚才说到哪儿了？阴郁剂 Where were we? Darkenfloxx.
马克为这个研究做准备 在女士们的随身包里加了这个药 Mark put it in the ladies' MobiPaks in anticipation of this very study.
这会不会让你觉得不自在？ That make you feel uncomfortable?
有一点 A little.
是吗？没关系 这是正常的 Yeah? That's okay, it should.
但是你跟我都很清楚 那只是一种刺激剂 But you know as well as I it's just an agitator,
不会造成永久性损害 好吗？ causes no permanent damage. All right?
所以你怎么决定 杰夫？ So what's your decision, Jeff?
你会给海瑟还是莎拉注射阴郁剂？ Is Heather getting the Darkenfloxx or is Sarah?
我不知道 我决定不了 I don't know, I can't say.
决定不了还是不肯决定？你必须决定 你是知道的 Can't say or won't say? You kinda have to, you know that.
如果我必须决定 那就随便选 I mean, it's random if I do.
你觉得你的决定会是随便选？ You feel your decision would be random?
对 Yeah.
我告诉你吧 我们想测试的是下面这个问题 This is what we're testing for…
你对两位女士是否有遗留的好感？ Is any residual fondness with… With the ladies.
要不你跟我们说说 你对海瑟和莎拉的感觉吧 So why don't you tell me how you feel about Heather and Sarah?
我的感觉？ How I feel?
要不来点善言素？ Maybe some Verbaluce?
不用了 不是说她们俩我都喜欢 或者我更喜欢其中的一个 No.
不用了 不是说她们俩我都喜欢 或者我更喜欢其中的一个 I mean, it's not that I like 'em both, or that I like one more than the other.
只是我对她们两个 真的都没有任何感觉 It's just, I… I just don't really feel anything towards either of them, you know?
我记得对她们俩曾经有过某种感觉 I mean, I can remember feeling a certain way towards 'em,
但那种感觉很模糊 现在也消失了 but that's all kind of hazy and worn off now.
那你为什么 如此抗拒给她们注射阴郁剂？ And why such reluctance to the Darkenfloxx then?
因为我参加过I-16项目 Because I was a part of I-16.
我知道那种滋味 你也知道 I mean, I know what it's like, and you know what it's like.
-那… -对 -It's… -Yeah.
那很可怕 It's… It's horrible.
我不想对任何人做那种事 And I just… I don't want to do that to anyone.
我不知道 我会随便选 Look, I don't know. It's random.
好的 这样吧 Okay. I'll tell you what.
我给海瑟注射阴郁剂 好吗？ I'm giving the Darkenfloxx to Heather. Okay?
其实我打算给莎拉注射 Actually, I'm gonna give it to Sarah.
好的 杰夫 我相信你说的话 All right, Jeff, you've convinced me.
你会随便选 你真的不偏好她们中的任何一个 It would to you be random, you truly have no preference.
对我来说 最好是谁都不注射 My preference is that nobody gets it.
我也是这么想的 That makes two of us.
我也是 Three.
看看我们刚才完成了什么 See what we just did.
在你的帮助之下 我们对N-40有了很多了解 With your help, we learned a lot more about N-40.
药名暂定为浓情素 "Luvactin," working title.
也就是说没有人会注射阴郁剂？ So, no one's getting Darkenfloxx?
今天没有 Not today.
但是我们 确实需要进一步了解N-40 But we do need to understand N-40 a bit better.
比如 药效持续时间多长？ For instance, uh, what's the drug's duration?
剂量对药效有什么影响？ What's the variable effect of its dosage?
你和莎拉用的剂量 是你跟海瑟用的剂量的两倍 You and Sarah were on double the dose of you and Heather
但是你对这两个女人的感觉 基本是一样的 and yet your feelings for the two women are largely the same.
难道你不觉得这很有意思吗？ Don't you find that interesting?
嗯 Yeah.
听着 我不会动不动 就把阴郁剂搬出来吓唬别人 Hey, uh, I, uh… I'm not one to bring Darkenfloxx in any conversation,
但我们必须更深入地入解N-40 杰夫 它可能带来巨大的改变 but we have to know more about N-40. It could be a game-changer, Jeff.
我们的工作能帮助无数的人 The work we do could help millions of people.
你曾经爱过吗？ You ever loved?
有 Yeah.
你很幸运 不是所有人有爱的能力 Yeah, you were lucky. Not everyone can.
你知道吗？孤独感对人的伤害 等同于每天抽15根烟 You know that loneliness is as lethal as smoking 15 cigarettes a day?
去查证一下 Look it up.
想象一下 如果我们可以 销毁世界上所有的香烟 Imagine if we could destroy all the world's cigarettes.
我们可以让全世界的人 爱别人、被别人爱、有爱的能力 We'd have people everywhere loving, being loved, capable of love,
而谁可能让这个愿景成为现实？ and who would've made that possible?
那我能拿金星了 -Gold star for me. -Yeah.
对 还有你的新朋友N-40 我们则获得喝彩 Yeah. And your new friend, N-40. Yay for us.
好了 女士们 谢谢两位 Okay. Thank you, ladies.
你自己出去吧 杰夫 Excuse you, Jeff.
嘿 你还好吧？ Hey. Everything okay?
还好 Yeah.
她们不知道自己 差一点就被注射阴郁剂了 They don't know how close they came to getting Darkenfloxxed.
是啊 我知道 我明白 Yeah, I know. I get it.
如果在改变你人生的那个晚上之前 But listen, man, think if you'd had the benefit of one of our products
你能用上我们试验的药物… before your fateful night…
杰夫 你最想要的是什么？ What is it you want, Jeff, more than anything in the world?
回到那天晚上 To go back.
你想要救赎 What you want is redemption.
只有这样你才能找到救赎 And this is how you're gonna find it.
是 谢谢 Yeah, thanks.
你好 Hey.
吃肉丸？ Meatball?
好啊 Yeah, sure.
对不起 Ah, sorry.
游戏结束
没关系 反正这个游戏我玩得很差 It's all right. I suck at this game anyway.
-嘿 我想… -嘿 杰夫 -Hey, I wanted to-- -Hey, Jeff.
自由周五 Ah, Free Fridays.
真幸运 Lucky.
代我向你老婆问好 Say hi to the missus for me.
你好 这是艾玛的手机 请留言或者别留言 Hi, it's Emma. Leave a message or don't.
嘿 宝贝 你可能 已经厌烦了我给你的留言 Hey, babe, you're probably getting sick of me leaving these things for you,
但我只想跟你说同样的话 我很想你 还有 对不起 but I just wanted to tell you the usual that I miss you and I'm sorry.
我还想告诉你一件事 Something else I wanna tell you too.
我认识了一个人 她叫丽姿 I, uh, met someone. Yeah, her name's Lizzy.
她有点让我想起你 She kinda reminds me of you a little bit.
所以我也许终于不会再烦你了 So maybe I'll finally stop bugging you.
这会是我最后一次说对不起 This'll be my last, "I'm sorry."
进来吧 Yeah, come in.
圣诞快乐 丽姿 Merry Christmas, Lizzy.
-你今年乖不乖？-你这是… -Have you been a nice girl? -This is…
你这是圣诞老人？ This is Santa?
你好！ Hello!
我想着这应该会让我们开心起来 Thought this might cheer us up.
圣诞快乐 -Merry Christmas. -Merry Christmas.
天啊 God.
但现在其实还没有到圣诞吧？ It's not actually Christmas though, is it?
现在是十月吗？ October?
-我乱猜的 -好的 -Yeah, just a guess. -Okay.
《铃儿响叮当》更应景 但却是这个音乐 I'd play "Jingle Bells," but we get this instead.
你猜怎么着？我煮点蛋奶酒 You know what? I'll make some eggnog.
-好吗？-圣诞老人喜欢喝蛋奶酒 -Ooh, Santa like eggnog. -Not the Santa voice.
别装圣诞老人的声音 -Ooh, Santa like eggnog. -Not the Santa voice.
嘿 罗根 Hey, Rogan.
你去死吧 Go fuck yourself.
不要 No, no, no, no, no, no.
-绝对不行 伙计们 拜托 -放松 -No way, guys. Come on. -Just relax.
我们知道这个药的功效 好吗？我们都见识过它的效果 We know what it does. Okay? We've all seen what it does.
药效已经被证实了 我们又不是在搞色情演出 It's already proven. This isn't some type of skin show.
你跟他们说说 罗根 Tell 'em, Rogan.
我不知道你在说什么 不过你们都去死吧 I don't know what you're talkin' about. But fuck all y'all.
-他的话印在贺卡上肯定会火 -我能听到你说话！ -He has a future in greeting cards. -I can fuckin' hear you!
伙计们 听我说 好吗？ Guys, listen, listen to me, okay?
我从来没有跟男人… I've never been with a… Uh…
无意冒犯 老兄 如果你有 那没关系 No offense, man. If you have, that's fine.
我不好这口 随便你 It's not my thing. Whatever.
听着 马克 我还没有恢复过来 Look, Mark, I'm not recovered, man.
我让你们给我药膏 根本没有人给我药膏 I asked for cream, nobody brought me cream.
所以我不要这么做 我拒绝 So I'm not doing this. I won't.
我不要 不行！ No, I'm not. No! No! No! No!
我不要 我不干 我不同意 I'm not, I won't. I won't acknowledge.
杰夫 别激动 这不是你所想的那样 今天不做浪漫激情试验 Jeff, chill pill. It isn't what you think. No romance novels today.
这是你的损失 Your loss.
很好笑 Funny.
到此为止 两位 谢谢 That's it, guys. Thanks.
这他妈的到底是在搞什么？ What the fuck was that about?
乒乓锦标赛定在了星期六 Ping-pong tournament set for Saturday.
感兴趣的话 请找雷报名 Please see Ray if you're interested.
-嗨 杰夫 -嘿 海瑟 -Oh, hi, Jeff. -Hey, Heather.
现在不适合 It's not the time.
艾纳斯蒂先生是不是让你决定 给我还是给罗根注射阴郁剂？ Did Mr. Abnesti ask you who to Darkenfloxx, me or Rogan?
-他确实给了我这个两难的选择… -海瑟 -He did present me with that dilemma-- -Heather.
除了我以外 你最近是不是也跟罗根做过爱 Did you recently have sex with Rogan in addition to me
并且像爱上我一样地爱上了他？ and fall in love with him like you did with me?
杰夫 别这样 Jeff, come on.
你对目前发生的事的评估很准确 That's an accurate assessment of what's going on.
-海瑟 用袜子堵住嘴巴 别说了 -好 -Heather, put a sock in it. -Okay.
杰夫 你在干什么？ Jeff, what are you doing?
现在她在找她的袜子 注射了善言素听不懂言外之意 Now she's looking for her sock. You get very literal on Verbaluce.
对 我知道 海瑟 谢谢你 你自己出去吧 把门关上 Yes, I'm aware. Thank you. Show yourself out, close the door.
-好的 -做得很好 -Okay. -Well done.
你自己出去吧 谢谢 Please show yourself out, thank you.
-老天爷 杰夫 这… -是 -Jesus Christ, Jeff. It's-- -Wow. Yeah.
这是什么情况？ What's going on, huh?
-就是说每个人都跟其他人操上了？-注意用词 -So everybody's just fucking everyone? -Language.
每个人都跟其他人上床 Everyone's fucking everyone.
-听着 别激动 -然后被要求给别人注射阴郁剂 -Relax. -And being asked to Darkenfloxx everyone.
这是个实验 It's experimental design.
规则不是我定的 是程规委员会 I don't make the rules, it's the Protocol Committee.
你自己看看吧 你看 这里 Why don't you take a look? Look. Here.
给 Here you go. Huh?
你以为我想这么做吗？ You think I want to do this?
我去把门关上 Let me close the door.
马克 听我说 Mark, I mean, look, man,
我参加过 一些非常疯狂的项目 对吗？ I've been on some crazy-ass project teams, right?
但是这个…这个感觉非常不对 But this one… Yeah, this one doesn't feel right.
杰夫 我同情你 但我的同情只到一定程度 Jeff, you know, I sympathize, but only to a point.
我得暂时把朋友的身份放一边 提醒你 I gotta take off my friendship hat for a second and remind you,
你身处这个试验场地 your presence in this facility,
尽管严格来说是对你的惩罚 但它其实是一种优待 对吗？ while technically a punishment, is a privilege. Is it not?
是你自己申请参加的 并获得了批准 You applied for it, you were approved for it.
你可能会在州立监狱 跟普通囚犯关在一起 You could as easily be at State with the general pop
跟他们玩攻受游戏 and you would be playing pitch-and-catch,
遇到罗根这种人 你就只能当受 in your case catch, with the likes of Rogan.
你可不想知道 他上次坐牢干了什么好事 You don't wanna know what he did in his last prison.
第二点 我们的不锁门政策 是最让我自豪的地方 And secondly, our open-door policy is my greatest pride.
我可以去看你 你也可以来看我 I can come visit you, you can visit me.
甚至是去我的房间 或者上来蜘蛛头这里 Even in my quarters or up here in the Spiderhead.
这个世界上没有别的惩戒机构 能够让狱卒与囚犯 No other penal institution in the world boasts such a respectful relationship
享受如此互相尊重的关系 between the jailer and the jailed.
没有栅栏、没有守卫 这只有在互相尊重的情况下才有可能 No bars, no guards, that's only possible in a culture of mutual respect.
好吗？互相尊重 我不会冲进你的房间去 对吗？ Okay? Mutual respect. I don't burst in on you, do I?
-不会 -不会 -No. -No.
所以你也别冲进我的试验室来 我们必须遵守这一点 否则我得走人 So, you don't burst in on me. We must honor that or it's my ass.
门被关上 被锁上 Doors close, locks go on,
我们就跟别的监狱没什么两样了 你听明白了吗？ suddenly we're no different from anywhere else, you get it?
明白了 Yes.
天哪 这里难道就这么糟糕吗？ Jesus, is it all that terrible here?
杰夫 我这么问 是因为我真的煞费了苦心 Huh? I'm asking 'cause I've taken great pains, Jeff.
这里很不错 It's very nice.
这里的食物 乒乓比赛、游戏机室游戏 The food, the ping-pong, arcade games,
在合理范围内可以随意自由行动 freedom within reason to move around as you please.
这一点是我为了你强烈要求的 I've insisted on that for you.
我几乎违反了州立监狱的服从标准 I've flirted with violating state compliance standards,
-我冒的风险很大 -我知道 -at no small risk to me. -I know.
当着我的上司及上司的上司的面 In front of my bosses, my boss' bosses.
替我说几句话 马克 Back me up here, Mark.
-来呀 说话呀 -他说得对 -Hmm? Come on, say something. -He's right.
你至少应该表现出感激之情 At least you could return the sentiment.
这是你至少能做的 It's the least you could do.
对不起 I'm sorry.
好吗？我… Okay? I…
只是一提到要用阴郁剂 就让我觉得很烦躁 好吗？ It's just, all this talk of Darkenfloxx, it gets me on edge. Okay?
我也讨厌这个试验 杰夫 我很抱歉 好吗？ I hate this, Jeff and I'm sorry. Okay?
我只是… I just…
我要知道我们是否能信任你 I need to know if we can count on you.
我们能否相信你 在将来会遵守我们的约定？ Can we count on you in the future to honor our arrangement?
嘿 莎拉 Hey, Sarah.
下周的这个时候 我们的最后一个 金星应该就能定了 你觉得呢？ This time, next week, we'll have our last gold star, don't you think?
马克 你能偶尔笑一下吗？我们正在改变世界 Mark, smile once in a while, okay? We're changing the world.
嗯 Yeah.
连你也给我脸色 Not you too.
听我说 阴郁剂只是个工具 明白吗？ Listen, Darkenfloxx is a tool, okay?
它能帮助我们理解重要的事 It's gonna help us figure out the important shit.
下个星期的这个时候 我就把它束之高阁 我向你保证 This time, next week, right back in the drawer, I promise.
好吗？怎么了？ Yeah? What?
只是想起了杰夫说的话 他想有一种让人遗忘的药 Well, just something Jeff said about wanting a drug to forget.
你得放松一下 好吧？ You need to relax, okay?
马克 好好过周末吧 Enjoy your weekend, Mark.
回大陆去 放空一下大脑 Hit the mainland, clear your head.
你需要放松 我们俩都需要放松 You need it. We both do.
吃鸡翅、喝啤酒、玩快乐滚球 你们年轻人喜欢干啥就干啥 Maybe wings, beer, Skee-Ball, whatever you kids are into?
嗯 应该是玩快乐滚球 Yeah, um… Oh, I think Skee-Ball.
好的 Okay.
回头见 马克 Bye, Mark.
浓情素
我的天哪 Holy fucking shit.
没有善言素的帮助很难形容那种感觉 I mean, it's hard to describe without Verbaluce,
但是想象一下你最糟糕的感觉 比那个糟糕十倍 but just imagine the worst you've ever felt times ten,
连那种感觉 都无法与我现在所说的相比 and even that doesn't even come close to it, honestly, I mean…
我当时感觉自己像着火了一样 I felt like I was on fire.
我希望自己着火了 I wished I was on fire.
我愿意点火自焚 让那种感觉停下来 太可怕了 I would have set myself on fire to make it stop. It's horrible.
那他们会给人注射阴郁剂？ So they give this Darkenfloxx to someone?
这次不会 I mean, not this time.
那就好 Well, that's good.
天哪 你在发抖 Jesus, you're shaking.
你是好人 You're a good guy.
我听马克说是你要求调离零食组的 Look, I heard from Mark that you asked to be taken off snack.
我猜那意味着 你要离我远远的 对吗？ I assume that meant away from me, right?
是因为… It's 'cause of, uh…
艾玛？ Emma?
嗯 Yeah.
不 她… No, she's…
她已经开始了新生活 She's moved on.
只是有时听听她的声音 能让我好受一点 It just helps to hear her voice sometimes.
我知道 当然了 我明白 Yeah, I know. Of course, I get it, you know.
这个地方会让人头脑不清醒 This place can really mess with your head.
他们一直拿我来测试 比平常奇怪很多的药 I mean, they've been testing me up and down a lot weirder stuff than usual.
最近真的很煎熬 It's just been really tough lately.
有时候 很难记起 我进来这里之前是谁 Sometimes, it's hard to remember who I was before I came in here.
但是 丽姿… But, Lizzy…
只有跟你在一起时 When I'm with you…
我才觉得我做回了自己 that's the only time I really feel like myself.
举起双手 马克 来吧 这就对了 Hands up, Mark. Come on. There you go.
我对G-46的目标客户有个好想法 -So, I had a big idea for G-46.
是吗？笑迎春吗？ Oh, yeah? What, Laffodil?
对 把它卖给喜剧俱乐部 Yes, uh, we sell it to comedy clubs.
这个想法太小家子气了 马克 无意冒犯 That's a little idea, Mark. No offense.
我有点被冒犯了 Offense kind of taken.
我有点被冒犯了 Whoo-hoo!
我一直怎么跟你说的？ What do I keep saying to you, huh?
我不知道 闭嘴？ I don't know, "Shut up, Mark"?
我经常说你要有大局观 I say you gotta think huge.
这就好像是 你看这个世界的双筒望远镜拿反了 You look at the world through the wrong end of binoculars.
这很奇怪 别用奇怪的眼光看世界 That's weird. Don't be weird.
对了 我们什么时候开始？ Hey, uh, what time do we start?
十分钟后 Ten minutes.
你给我加药吧 我们有时间 Why don't you hit me? We got time.
来吧 给我加药 开始吧 Come on, hit me. Let's go.
-两种药？-加三种吧 -Two? -Uh, make it three.
要记得 至少间隔12小时 Remember, at least 12 hours apart.
是 我听到了注射剂量时间表 谢谢提醒 Yeah, I've heard the dosing schedule. Thank you.
说吧 来吧 你一直很想说这些话 Say it. Come on, you've been wanting to for a while.
畅所欲言吧 Best shot.
你应该最清楚… You of all people--
最清楚这么做的风险？ Should understand the risks?
我这就是在理解其风险 That's what I'm trying to do.
-我们不需要拿自己来当小白鼠 -我能吗？ -We can assess risks without taking them. -Oh, can I?
马克 总得有人为我们的产品负责 Someone has to answer for our products, Mark.
你难道没有想过这一点？ Doesn't that occur to you?
外面的生活跟这里的完全不同 对吗？外面非常混乱 Life out there is not life in here, okay? Shit is messy.
完全不受我们的控制 这些药是新领域 It's out of our control. This is new frontier stuff here.
当我们的其中一种药失败时 那种事肯定会发生 And when, not if, when one of our compounds falls on its face,
我们中的一个 必须站在刚刚痛失爱人的人面前 one of us has to stand in front of a bereaved loved one,
站在记者迈克华莱士 甚至是陪审团面前为我们的工作负责 or Mike Wallace, or God forbid, a jury, and answer for what we do.
为我们制造、包装 命名并出售的药物负责 What we made and bottled and named and sold.
那个人会是你吗？ Is that gonna be you?
不 那个人会是那个可以说 No, it's gonna be the guy who can say,
你说对了 我支持我的产品 因为我亲自测试过 "You're right I stand behind our shit. I've taken it myself."
迈克华莱士已经死了 Mike Wallace is dead.
真的？要跟上时事真不容易 那就埃德布拉德利 Really? Hard to keep track. Ed Bradley then.
他也死了 Also dead.
莫利塞弗呢？ Morley Safer?
可恶 以为别人死了 然后发现他们还活着的感觉会好一点 Shit. Better to think someone's dead, and find out they're alive.
你最初雇我的时候… Yeah, when you first hired me--
是 你不同意 我知道了 Yeah, you disapproved. Duly noted.
嘿 杰夫 你好吗？ Hey, Jeff, how are you?
-嘿 -抱歉 我不是故意… -Hey. -Sorry, I didn't mean to…
没事 下次稍微提前通知比较好 That's cool. Maybe a bit of advance notice next time.
当然 Sure.
我们开始吧？ Yeah, shall we?
诺贝尔奖可不会从天而降 Nobel Prize ain't gonna win itself.
马克？ Mark?
我去洗把脸 一会儿就下去 I'm gonna freshen up, so be down in a second.
该死 Shit.
-海瑟是不是… -正赶过来 -Is Heather… -On her way.
长得漂亮的人 往往太容易获得别人的原谅 Beautiful people get away with too much.
我这么说是因为 我自己偶尔也占过这种便宜 I say that having benefited myself from time to time.
海瑟 谢谢你的参与 我们马上回来 Heather, thanks for joining us. Be right with you.
好了 杰夫 我想先向你道歉 All right, uh, Jeff, I want to start by apologizing.
不 我之前不该闯进你的试验室的 No, look, I shouldn't have walked in on you.
不是那件事 Oh. No, not that. Uh…
你还记得吗？那天我问你 Remember the other day when I asked you
要给哪个女生注射阴郁剂 你说两个都不选 which girl to give the Darkenfloxx to and you said neither?
记得 Yeah.
你的选择对我来说够好了 但显然程规委员会不接受 That was good enough for me, but apparently not the Protocol Committee.
他们极其讨人厌 简直是恶魔 -Mm-hmm. -Three Horsemen of Anality.
他们不相信你对海瑟和莎拉 They're not convinced you don't have residual feelings
都没有残留的感情 for Heather and Sarah.
所以很不幸 今天我们必须做个试验确认 So, unfortunately today we gotta do a kind of a confirmation trial.
这次按程规委员会的要求来做 马克 This time per the Protocol Committee, Mark,
这次不是我问你 给哪个女性注射阴郁剂 uh, instead of me asking you which girl to give the Darkenfloxx to,
程规委员会觉得这个做法 主观性太强 which the Protcom felt was, they say, "too subjective,"
这次换我们来给她注射阴郁剂 然后看看你会有什么说法 we're gonna give the girl the Darkenfloxx and then see what you say.
还是要借助一点善言素 Once again on some Verbaluce.
他的随身包充过了吗？剂量够吗？ You refreshed his MobiPak? His quantities good?
够了 而且我已经告诉过你了 They are. Plus I already told you they are.
海瑟的呢？ And what about Heather's?
你站在那里看着我充的 史蒂夫 You stood right there and watched me, Steve.
确实 马克 That I did, Mark.
抱歉 杰夫 今天的气氛有点紧张 Sorry, Jeff, we're a little tense today.
今天不容易 因为这个安排让大家都有点不舒服 Not an easy day and everyone's a little bit uncomfortable about this.
我不想你给海瑟注射阴郁剂 I don't want you to Darkenfloxx Heather.
好的 这是个好开始 Okay, good start.
那是因为你爱她吗？因为你有爱的感觉？ Uh, is that because you love her? Feelings of love?
不是 我已经告诉过你了 No, I mean, I already told you that.
对 而且我也同意了 Yeah, uh, and I agreed,
但是你和我想怎样 对于这个确认试验重要吗？ but is this confirmation trial about what you and I want?
不太重要 Not so much.
重要的是 你观察 海瑟被注射阴郁剂后的反应 What it is about is about us recording what you say
而我们把你说的话记录下来 as you observe Heather getting Darkenfloxxed
五分钟 仅此而已 for five minutes, that's all.
一个五分钟的试验 可以吗？ One five-minute trial. Okay?
好的 先从善言素开始 So, here we go with the Verbaluce.
注射药物 杰夫？ Drip on, Jeff?
拜托 杰夫 Oh, come on, Jeff.
你应该感到荣幸才是 我们没选罗根呢 You should be flattered. Did we choose Rogan?
你很怕罗根 You're afraid of Rogan.
对 纸巾盒到了罗根手里 都能成为杀人凶器 Yeah, Rogan could kill you with a box of Kleenex.
但主要是因为我们认为 你的表达方式更适合我们的数据需求 But no, we deemed your level of speaking more commensurate with our data needs.
注射药物？ Drip on?
天哪 你知道海瑟的案底吗？ God, did you even know Heather's story?
你不知道 法律规定你不能知道 You don't. Legally, you can't.
但是否跟威士忌、黑帮 和杀死自己的父亲有关？我不能说 But does it involve whiskey, gangs, patricide? I can't say.
但是我能暗示一下吗？她过去的生活可不是养上一条狗 But can I imply that her past did not exactly include a dog named Lassie
经常跟家人在一起讨论《圣经》 奶奶则坐在旁边编流苏花边 and a lot of family talks about the Bible while grammy sat doing macramé?
我能否建议…马克 咖啡壶空了 Can I suggest if… Mark, empty.
我能否建议你 如果你知道了海瑟的过往 Can I suggest if you knew Heather's past,
让她在很短的时间里 感觉难过、想吐或者恐惧 making her feel briefly sad, nauseous, and/or horrified,
或许并不是最恶劣的事情？ it might not seem like the worst idea in the world?
我不知道 I don't know.
我是没人性的人吗 杰夫？ Am I a monster, Jeff?
我记不记得这里各位的生日？ Do I remember birthdays around here?
上次是谁带你上他的水上飞机的？ Who took you up in his seaplane that one time?
-是你 -对 而且上次 -You. -Yeah. And when we had
你长脚癣 两只脚都长满了皮疹的时候 that outbreak of athlete's foot, and your feet were rashed up,
是不是有个人十万火急地赶去买药 did a certain individual rush to pick up a prescription,
并且自掏腰包替你付了钱？ paying for it with his own personal money?
-那很够朋友 -没错 -That was nice. -Yeah.
现在提这些事似乎有失专业素养 Seems unprofessional to bring up now.
拜托 杰夫 你到底想我说什么？ Come on, Jeff, what do you want me to say here?
取消你的自由周五？ Huh? Your Free Fridays are at risk?
我想帮忙 艾纳斯蒂先生 Look, I'm trying to help, Mr. Abnesti.
叫我史蒂夫！ Steve!
你能打通电话吗？算是为了我 Can you make a call for me?
好 行 Yeah, all right.
我试试看 好吗？我马上回来 Let me give it a shot. Okay? BRB.
丽姿 Lizzy.
艾纳斯蒂先生 Uh, Mr. Abnesti.
这么客气 难道我爸爸在这儿？ -My father in the room? -Huh?
我逗谁呢？我八岁他就离开了我 Who am I kidding? He split when I was eight.
天哪 真遗憾 Shit, man. I'm sorry.
我们很高兴有你在这里 丽姿 We're so happy to have you, Lizzy,
不只是因为你的烹饪才能 and not just 'cause of your culinary skills.
你的烤牛胸肉 连续三年赢了普雷斯科特烧烤节的 You won best brisket at the Prescott Barbecue Festival,
最佳称号对吧？ three years running?
你怎么知道的？ How did you know that?
知道这些事是我的职责 -It's my business to know. -Wow.
我个人认为牛胸肉太粗了 不过… You know, myself,
我个人认为牛胸肉太粗了 不过… -I find brisket a little bit fibrous, but… -Hmm.
好吧 Okay.
你想要的那些铜锅拿到了吗？ Did we snag you those copper pots you're after?
我一直想着向你道谢 I've been meaning to thank you.
别这么说 不必客气 Stop it, stop it, unnecessary.
有你的加入让我们非常高兴 You've been such a welcome addition.
-这是我的小小心意 -谢谢你 -It's the least I could do. -Thank you.
事实上 你让我觉得… In fact, you know, you made me feel, uh…
你让我觉得自己有点傻 Made me feel a little bit foolish.
-傻？-是的 -Foolish? -Yeah.
就是拿到别人的档案 Just, you get someone's file
你会有一些先入为主的看法 尽管你知道 and, uh, you form these preconceptions, even when you know
当时的情况很复杂 而且没有很多很好的应对方式 there were plenty of circumstances and not so many fair shakes.
你还是会做出评判 You still judge.
这里还有别人知道吗？ Anyone else here, um, know?
没有 这是我们的小秘密 Oh, no. Our little secret.
是的 Yeah.
咖啡很好喝 用一千个铜锅 换这么好喝的咖啡也值得 This is good. A thousand copper pots for Java like this.
改天让你出去实地调研吧？让亚利桑那的姑娘去晒晒太阳？ Or maybe a field trip? An Arizona girl-in-the-sunshine, huh?
嗨 杰夫 Hi, Jeff. Uh…
抱歉 伙计 I'm sorry, man.
很不幸的是 委员会一点都不动摇 Unfortunately, the committee was very firm.
他们坚持继续按照安排进行测试 They insisted the test must be continued as scheduled.
他们威胁说 如果你不合作 就把你从这个项目撤走 Otherwise, they're threatening to remove you from this program
送你回州立监狱 and send you back to State.
他们需要你同意 杰夫 They need you to acknowledge, Jeff.
好 我最后问你一次 注射药物？ Okay, I'm gonna ask you one last time. Drip on?
好吧 同意 Yeah, acknowledge.
谢谢你 Thank you.
海瑟 我们回来了 Heather, hello again.
再次说声早安 Good morning, again.
注射药物？ Drip on?
同意 Acknowledge.
好了 马克 Okay, Mark.
阴郁剂
我不喜欢这样 I don't like this.
求你们了 很痛 Please. It's hurting.
我这是怎么了？ What's wrong with me?
-这不会伤害你的 海瑟 -妈的 -It can't hurt you. -Shit.
杰夫 多说话 说细节 我们这次得出点成果 Jeff, speak a lot, in detail. Let's make something useful with this.
善言素
海瑟刚刚吐了 Heather just vomited.
她看起来非常难受 She appears to be in a highly aversive state.
要不你帮我们描述一下吧 最初的反应是什么？ Why don't you back us up? What happened first?
她开始哭了起来 She started to cry.
她似乎对她的感觉感到困惑 She seems confused by how she's feeling.
现在她哭得更惨了 她似乎无法安静地坐着 Now she's crying harder. She seems unable to sit still.
那你有什么感觉？ And what are you feeling?
-忧郁、内疚 -不要 求你们了 -Melancholy. Culpability. -Oh, no, please.
继续 Go on.
不要 No, no, no.
我只能想到海瑟曾经也是个孩子 All I can think is Heather was once a child.
被她的爸爸和妈妈爱着 -Loved by her mother and father…
他们俩都预料不到 她有一天也许会做出很可怕的事 …neither foreseeing that one day she might do a terrible thing.
让她跟她所爱的人彻底分离的事 A thing that would separate her once and for all from love.
很好 继续 Good, go on.
让她失去欢乐 并给她带来难以言说的悲伤 Divorce her from joy and cause her unspeakable sadness.
你爱她吗？ And do you love her?
帮帮我！求你们了！ Help! Please! Please!
不爱 No.
再坚持一下 杰夫 Hang in there, Jeff.
马克 你在杰夫的评论当中 听出了余情未了的意思吗？ Hey, Mark. Any vestige of romantic love
马克 你在杰夫的评论当中 听出了余情未了的意思吗？ -in Jeff's words?
-我认为没有 -很好 -No. -Great.
他说的全是颇为基本的人类情感 -Just basic human feeling.
非常好 Excellent.
史蒂夫 -Steve.
史蒂夫 似乎在过度注射 -Mm? -I think it's flooding.
别过来！ Get back!
消除药效 Back off.
我试过了 药效不是… -I did. The effects not--
多给一点红色的 Try more red.
海瑟现在痛苦万分 Heather is in great torment.
-快点 消除药效 -我在尝试 不起作用 -Back it off. -It's not working.
海瑟 听我说 坐下来 我命令你不要乱动 Heather, listen to me. Sit down, don't raise a finger, that's an order.
别靠过来 求你了！ Get away from me, please!
这是在搞什么？ -Are you kidding me?
这他妈的是在搞什么？ Are you fucking kidding me?
天啊 Jesus.
情况不好 快到里面去 快 This is bad. Get in there, go.
糟糕 Shit.
海瑟正在破坏她能碰到的所有东西 Heather's destroying everything within reach.
坐下 我命令你坐下 Sit down. That is an order.
都是我的错 I'm responsible.
他妈的离我远一点！ Stay the fuck away from me!
我协助了… I facilitated--
海瑟 听我说 深呼吸 一切都会好起来的 好吗？ Heather, listen to me, deep breaths, everything's gonna be fine, okay?
放松就好 Just relax.
海瑟！ Heather!
好吧 Oh, shit.
坏了 Oh, shit.
我的天哪 Oh, my God. Oh, my God. Oh, my God.
天哪！ Oh, shit!
我的天哪 Oh, my God.
天哪 Oh, shit.
该死的 马克 God damn it, Mark.
我感觉不到脉搏 I don't feel a pulse.
你有什么毛病？我让你消除药效的 What is wrong with you? I told you to back it off.
什么？我消除了 What? What? What? I… I did back it off.
-别管你的… -我告诉过你会发生这种事的 -Forget your… -I told you this would happen.
她对我的直接命令没有反应 She did not respond to my direct order.
你在胡说八道 You're talking shit.
你不敢百分百投入…我告诉过你… You are afraid to commit… I told you every time, don't hesitate!
我下指令 你就照我说的去做！ I give an instruction, do what I say!
艾纳斯蒂制药公司？ "Abnesti Pharmaceuticals"?
史蒂夫 我警告过你的 Steve, I warned you.
这是他的公司 -You did not. -This is his company.
-我告诉你了 -别赖到我头上！ -I told you. -Do not blame me!
你没有听我的劝 我告诉过你的 这都怪你 You did not listen, I told you. This is your fault.
我告诉过你的 I told you. I told you.
-你不给我… -你记得吗？ -Give me… -You remember that?
宾果？ "Bingo"?
你以为我只管一件事吗？ You think I have one job?
N-40 N-40.
你们是否同意注射N-40？注射药物？ Can I have your permission to administer N-40? Drip on?
同意 Acknowledge.
这怎么能…
看到这个遥控器吗？ You see this remote?
假设你可以控制这个按键 给莎拉注射阴郁剂 Let's say, you can slide this button and Sarah gets some Darkenfloxx.
I-16 I-16.
搞什么？ What the hell?
-嘿 你去哪里？-闭嘴 马克 -Where are you going? -Shut up, Mark.
B-6 B-6.
我知道做试验的时候会很疯狂 但是不能碰撞随身包 I know it gets crazy in there, but they're not made for jostling,
可能会导致过度注射 they can flood.
这不是你的错 It's not your fault.
不是你的错 Not your fault.
这太过了 我们必须报告这件事 This has gone too far. We need to report this.
成熟一点 马克 你不该表现得 好像我们跨过了某条道德界限 Grow up. You shouldn't act like we've crossed some sort of line here.
我们已经越过很多条界限了 最初的时候你怎么没有担心？ The time to worry about crossing lines was a lot of lines ago.
要是海瑟的事被人知道了 If anyone finds out what happened to Heather,
我们的项目会被关闭的 马克 they'll shut us down, Mark.
我所成就的一切就没了 Everything I've accomplished will be lost,
而且你别以为他们只会追究我的责任 and don't think they'll just come after me.
你也会遭受池鱼之殃 You'll go down too.
是 Yeah.
嘿 Hey.
我很抱歉 I'm sorry.
好吧 发生的事太可怕了 Okay, this was awful.
但记得我常跟你说的那句话吗？ But what do I always tell you? Hmm?
压力能造就钻石 Pressure forms diamonds.
对 Yeah.
这没关系 好吗？ This is fine, okay?
你和我再加把劲 You and I, we're gonna redouble our efforts.
我们会让B-6变得完美 我们将改变世界 马克 We're gonna gold star B-6, and we'll change the world, Mark.
至于海瑟 她是为了 最棒的事业而牺牲 明白吗？ And Heather? Heather died for the best of causes, okay?
明白 Okay.
真的明白？ "Okay" okay?
-嗯 -真的？ -Okay. -Yeah?
-是 -是吗？确定吗？ -Okay. -Yeah? Sure? Huh?
好了 你没事了 Come on, there you are.
你就休息一段时间 放松一下 Hey, just go take some time, relax.
尽力忘记这件事 出去吧 去吧 Whatever helps you forget, get out of here, go on.
她死了？ Is she dead?
她不是最优秀的 She's not the best.
这么说不公平 对 她死了 That's not fair. Yeah. Yes, she's gone.
这个…杰夫 你要知道 这是科学 This, uh… You know, this is science, Jeff.
科学就是要探索未知 And in science, we have to explore the unknown.
未知的领域存在无法预见的事 The unknown can lead to the unforeseen,
-我们根本无法预见… -我明白 -and we had no way of predicting that-- -I get it.
杰夫 你说话的这语气 Uh, your tone of voice there, Jeff,
我完全可以理解 which I perfectly understand.
但你平心而论 你以为 发生今天的事 我很开心吗？ But be fair. You think what happened today, you think I liked it?
并不 我也是人 I didn't. I'm a person too, you know, I…
我有情感 对于这个结果 没有人比我感到更心痛 I have feelings, and no one is more broken up about this than me.
但从长远来看 我们的工作将有助于消除苦难 But in the long run, our work will help ease suffering,
能够拯救生命 不只是一个生命 而是许多生命 it'll save lives, not just one life, many lives.
我们会让世界变得更美好 We're making the world a better place.
是吗？ Are we?
是的 杰夫 Yes, Jeff, we are.
你应该感到自豪 You should be proud.
先不谈个人的悲伤情绪 你在试验室里表现得很好 Personal sadness aside, you did terrific in there.
我们都做得很好 尤其是海瑟 We all did terrific. Heather, especially.
一直到她变得… Right up into the point where she…
那并不是她最清醒的时刻 You know, it wasn't her finest moment,
但在那之前发生的一切 她都表现得非常好 but everything prior to that, she was doing great
我们会永远记得她 and she'll never be forgotten.
怎么了？ What?
就是太难过了 It's just tough.
是的 Yeah.
要不要我给你点东西 缓解一下你现在的感受？ Can I get you something for how you're feeling?
G-46真是个好东西 对吧？ I swear, G-46 is good shit, right?
对 Yeah.
或许还不至于好到能改变世界 但确实很好 Maybe not change-the-world shit, but it's good shit.
这绝对是好东西 It's definitely good shit.
注射了这玩意儿 压根儿就伤心不起来 It's hard to have even one sad thought on this stuff.
你最悲惨的记忆是什么？ What's your worst memory?
什么？ What?
不好意思 这个问题很蠢 I'm sorry, that's a stupid question.
我的是…我当时… Mine, uh… Mine was… I was…
我当时只有八岁 I was eight years old
我爸爸告诉我他要带我去夏令营 and, uh, my dad told me he was gonna take me to summer camp.
我非常兴奋 I was so excited.
他开车送我过去 原来那并不是夏令营 And he dropped me off, and it turns out it wasn't summer camp,
而是一家寄养机构 it was foster care…
我后来就再也没有见过他了 …and I never saw him again.
我的天啊 Oh, my God.
我也在大笑呢 I'm laughing too.
那也太惨了 老兄 That's just so terrible, man.
感觉很搞笑 你试试 It seems funny. Try it.
他就再也没有回去找你 He never came back.
再也没有回去 甚至连周末去看看我也没有 He never came back. Not even for a weekend.
其实听到这个故事让我很伤心 I'm actually sorry to hear that, man.
见鬼了 Damn.
剂量太大了 Oh, the dose is too strong.
笑迎春
天啊 God.
你看看咱们俩 Man, look at us, huh?
杰夫和史蒂夫 Jeff and Steve.
史蒂夫和杰夫在一起消磨时光 Steve and Jeff hanging out.
两个朋友 Friends.
怎么了？ -What?
不是吗？我们俩一起在这上面 Come on, we're up here together.
欣赏美景 这是朋友在一起会做的事 Enjoying the view. That's a friendly thing to do.
你可以…嗯… You can… Well…
你随时都可以走出那道门 You can walk out that door anytime you want.
我可不能 I can't.
不 我不能了 再也出不去了 No, I can't. Not anymore.
有什么阻拦你吗？ What's stopping you?
我不能离开的原因跟你的一样 还有我做过的每一个决定 The same thing that's stopping you and every decision I've ever made.
让我来到这里的那些决定 The ones that led me here to this place.
这是我唯一的真爱 杰夫 This is my one true love, Jeff.
一旦你坠入了爱河 就很难退出了 And once you fall in love, it's hard to fall back out.
好吧 Okay.
杰夫和史蒂夫…被困在夏令营里 Jeff and Steve… stuck at summer camp.
敬杰夫和史蒂夫 我们俩没那么不同 To Jeff and Steve. Not that different.
他妈的把那个拿走！ Get that fucking thing away from me!
丽姿 听着 深呼吸 不会有事的 Lizzy, listen. Deep breaths. Everything's gonna be fine.
求你了！ Please!
请告诉我们以便记录下来 让你这么害怕的是什么？ For the record, can you tell us what you're so afraid of?
他妈的把它弄走！ Get it the fuck away!
善言素不起作用 The Verbaluce isn't doing shit.
是的 Yeah.
这个药好 This one's a goodie.
焦恐剂 Phobica.
请把它拿走！请停下来！ Please stop it! Please stop!
让人们会害怕对他们有害的东西 Make people afraid of things that are bad for them.
比如麸质？ What, like gluten?
对 或者想得太多 Yeah. Or thinking too much.
求你们把这该死的东西拿走！ Please, get that fucking thing away from me!
我担心她会有创伤后应激障碍 I'm worried about post-traumatic stress.
因为订书机？ From the stapler?
嘿 丽姿？那只是个订书机 Hey, Lizzy? Lizzy, it's just a stapler.
快拿走！ Just get away now!
怎样？该停止吗？ What, should we pack it in?
史蒂夫 我们该停止吗？ Steve, should we pack it in?
好的 -Yeah, okay.
那是迄今为止最可怕的经历 The worst one yet. By far.
你现在有什么感觉？ How do you feel now?
不觉得害怕 只有… Not afraid. Just, uh…
羞愧？ Ashamed?
是的 我讨厌那种感觉 Yeah, I hate that feeling.
我之前无法忍受在你面前有羞愧感 I couldn't stand feeling that way in front of you.
所以才要求调离零食组 That's why I asked to be off snack.
我在州立监狱待了很多年 You know, all the years I spent at State.
来到这里 我想… I come here, and I'm, like…
这个地方真的比州立监狱好很多吗？ Is this place even really so much better?
我宁愿被人揍 I mean, I'd take some beatdowns.
也不愿被一个该死的订书机吓得半死 Instead of having a fear of a goddamn stapler.
我们为什么总会同意试验？ Why do we keep saying yes?
同意 同意 同意 Acknowledge, acknowledge, acknowledge.
到底为了什么？一张私人放风通行证？ And for what? A private hall pass?
一个属于自己的房间？一堆该死的铜锅？我是说… A bedroom to ourselves? Copper freakin' pots? I mean…
你每次都说同意 到底是为什么？ All the times you've said yes, why did you?
我想是因为我觉得这是我应得的惩罚 I guess I felt like I deserved it.
丽姿 这是我一直想跟你说的话 That's what I've been meaning to tell you, Lizzy.
好 我想我还是跟他们去吧 Yeah. I think I might go with them.
嘿 Hey.
嘿 等等我 Hey. Wait up.
离了我她活不下去 -She can't live without me.
你开车没问题？ You cool to drive?
当然 Ice cold.
杰夫！ Oh, Jeff, Jeff, Jeff!
杰夫！ -Jeff!
艾玛 醒醒 宝贝 快走 Emma. Come on, baby. Come on.
艾玛！来吧 宝贝 醒醒 Emma! Come on, baby. Come on.
嘿 宝贝 你可能 已经厌烦了我给你的留言 Hey, babe.
嘿 宝贝 你可能 已经厌烦了我给你的留言 I know you're probably getting sick of me leaving these things for you,
但我只想跟你说同样的话 我很想你… but I just wanted to tell you the usual that I miss you…
还有 对不起 -and I'm sorry.
本用户的留言箱已满 The mailbox for this customer is full.
暂时不能接收任何消息 It cannot receive any more messages at this time.
真的很遗憾 I'm so sorry.
两个罪项 自愿非预谋性杀人罪 Two counts, voluntary manslaughter.
那还不包括海瑟 And that doesn't include Heather.
别把那笔算在你头上 Don't do that to yourself.
海瑟的死不怪你 That's not on you.
你已经尽全力了 You did everything you could.
没有 No.
我说了同意 I said "acknowledge."
可我甚至不知道为什么 And I don't even know why.
你是好人 You're a good soul.
我们是坏人 我们是大坏蛋 -We're bad. We're very bad.
不管怎样 我都觉得我们算不上这里的大恶人 For what it's worth, I think we're the least of all evils in here.
是吗？你怎么会这么说？ Yeah? What makes you say that?
我听到了一些传闻 You hear things.
你听到了一些传闻？ Oh, you hear things?
是啊 你认识雷吧？ Yeah. You know Ray?
是啊 你认识雷吧？ Mm-hmm.
他因吸毒四次入狱之后 进了戒毒所 So, after four times in jail for drugs, Ray went to rehab
后来又进了所谓的强化戒毒所 and then to what they call a rehab refresh,
基本上那是给对戒毒所免疫的人设的 which is basically for people who are so immune to rehab,
戒毒所对他们不起作用 -it stops working. -Hmm.
但是他应该对强化戒毒所都免疫了 因为他后来干了一票大的 But he must have been immune to that too, because then came his biggie.
三重谋杀 Triple murder.
是的 贩毒给他的人 毒贩的姐姐和她的男朋友 Yeah, his dealer, the dealer's sister, and the dealer's sister's boyfriend.
天哪 Shit, man.
你认识罗根吗？ You know Rogan?
-肌肉猛男罗根？当然认识 -对 -Big diesel Rogan. Hell, yeah. -Yeah.
-谁不认识罗根？-他有一天回到家 -Who doesn't know Rogan? -He came home.
发现他女朋友一脚踏两船 于是把她从八楼的窗户扔了出去 Found his girlfriend cheating on him and threw her out an eight-story window.
真可怕 Oh, shit.
她没有活下来 She did not survive.
真是疯了 Crazy.
是啊 我不明白 Yeah, I don't get it.
-这怎么可能呢？-什么意思？ -Like, how's it possible, man? -What?
如果我们算坏人 那真正的坏人算什么？ If we're all so bad, where's the bad?
你们这么晚都还没睡呢 You guys are up late.
是的 Yeah.
今天可以狂吃 Cheat day.
杰夫 我们也许会考虑 取消共用零食碗 因为… Oh, Jeff, we may wanna reconsider the community snack bowl, given, uh…
搅屎棍 Shit-finger.
是的 祝你们今晚愉快 Yeah. Have a wonderful evening.
-你也是 -你也是 -And you. -And you.
找到了 Bingo.
浓情素
是 Yes.
好的 我明白 Okay. I understand. Mm-hmm.
谢谢你 Thank you.
嘿 杰夫 谢谢你过来 你感觉怎么样？ Hey, Jeff, thanks for coming in. How're you feeling?
感觉很好 Uh, I'm good.
好 很好 听着 这让我非常心痛 All right, good. Uh, listen, this breaks my heart wide open.
但是程规委员会坚持要求 做最后一次试验建立基线 But Protcom are insisting on one last trial to establish a baseline.
我们… Uh, we…
你得给一个从未跟你 一起用过N-40的人注射阴郁剂 You have to administer Darkenfloxx to someone you've never shared N-40 with.
是谁？ Someone who?
这就是让我心痛的原因 杰夫 真的 That's what breaks my heart, Jeff. It really does.
马克 请你开灯 Eh, Mark, if you would.
不要 对不起 我不能这么做 No. Sorry, I can't do it.
你当然可以 杰夫 Of course you can, Jeff.
这是最后一次 给任何人注射阴郁剂 好吗？ This is the last time anyone's gonna get Darkenfloxxed, okay?
不应该这样折磨丽姿 Yeah, uh, Lizzy doesn't deserve this.
这次不会像上次那么极端 我向你保证 It won't go as far this time. You have my word.
你根本没有听我讲 You're not listening to me.
杰夫 拜托 你这话说得 跟你刚到这里时完全不一样 Jeff, come on. You sound nothing like the guy that first arrived here.
你刚到时愿意付出任何代价 弥补自己犯下的罪行 我说… That guy would've done anything to make his crime right.
你能不能闭嘴 老兄？ Would you just shut up, man?
我不干 I'm not doing it.
冷静 Calm.
要不今晚早点休息 好吗？ Maybe we should take the night. Yeah?
在早上对一切的感觉都会好一点 Things always feel better in the morning.
好啊 Yeah, sure.
你要记住 杰夫 你犯的错 不必再发生在任何人身上 Just remember, Jeff, uh, what you did won't have to happen to anyone again.
这种药物将会预防那种错误的出现 Drugs like this will prevent places like this.
再也没有伤害 再也没有人受伤害 No more damage, no more damaged people.
只有你能够阻止你做过的错事重演 Only you can prevent another you.
给他的剂量加倍 Double his dose.
我知道你很纠结 但是这能让你好受一点 I know you're struggling, but this will help.
红色那个是什么？ What's in the red one?
不好意思 -Sorry.
这不过是个玩具 It's just a toy.
红色的是安慰剂 我们把它加… The red one's a placebo. We put it--
别说了 Stop.
别再骗人了 Just stop.
根本就不存在程规委员会 对吗？ There is no Protocol Committee, is there?
这是他的公司 This is his company.
我看见他的信头了 I saw his letterhead.
艾纳斯蒂制药公司 Abnesti Pharmaceuticals.
管控一切的人就是他 He's the one in charge
他用一张该死的宾果卡 给那些药起名字 马克 and he's naming the drugs using a goddamn Bingo card, Mark.
你在这样的地方工作到底是为什么？ What are you doing working at a place like this?
拿N-40来作幌子 那全都是胡说八道 I mean, all this talk of N-40, I call bullshit, man.
艾纳斯蒂根本不在乎什么爱情 Abnesti doesn't care about love.
他只关心那个红色的药 No, he cares about the red one.
B-6 B-6.
你怎么能支持这种做法？ How can you go along with this?
你可以去任何地方工作 You could work anywhere.
为什么来这里？为什么帮他？ Why here? Why him?
天才少之又少 There are so few geniuses.
他向我承诺 我们将改变世界 He promised me we would change the world.
我只希望能帮助别人 I just wanted to help people.
你依然能帮助别人 You still can.
嘿 杰夫 我们的风云人物 Hey, Jeff, man of the hour.
希望你好好睡了一觉 把问题都想清楚了 嗯？ Hope you got some sleep, thought things over, yeah?
你坐助手席吧 Why don't you, uh, take the driver's seat?
马克今天不在 Mark's out today.
他鼻塞之类的 He's got a stuffed up nose or something.
千禧一代的德性 Millennials, huh?
不好意思 刚才那个说法…不太公道 Sorry, that's a… It's an unfair word.
仔细想想 有人随机地决定 You think about it, someone arbitrarily decides
所有在某两个日期之间出生的人 他们的行为都一样 that everyone born between this date and that date, they all act the same.
好比星座 不过比星座更愚蠢 It's like a… A horoscope, but stupider.
你跟马克完全不同 You and Mark are nothing alike.
这我可说不准 I don't know.
是马克让我重新考虑做这个试验的 It was Mark who made me reconsider.
那我就不计较他鼻塞了 Well, I'll forgive his sniffles.
不管怎样 今天有你、有我 还有丽姿 一共三个人 Anyway, so it's you and me and Lizzy, makes three.
丽姿 你好吗？ How're you doing, Lizzy?
我需要点维他命D Could use some Vitamin D.
我们很快就会让你去晒太阳 We'll get you some sunshine soon enough.
好了 杰夫 All right, Jeff.
今天早上 我把仅剩的阴郁剂 都装进丽姿的药水瓶里了 Uh, I filled Lizzy's vials with the last of the Darkenfloxx this morning.
其他的都扔了 销毁了 Dumped the rest. Gone.
我们要不要把这个试验彻底结束了？ Shall we put this thing behind us for good?
好的 我们开始吧 Fine. Let's do this.
丽姿？注射药物？ Lizzy? Drip on?
行 同意 Yeah, acknowledge.
杰夫 给丽姿注射阴郁剂 And, Jeff, give Lizzy the Darkenfloxx.
对不起 Sorry.
我的回答还是不行 The answer is still no.
哦 杰夫 J… Jeff.
操！ Fuck! Fuck, fuck, fuck!
好吧 杰夫 你是有什么障碍？ Okay. What are we up against here, Jeff? Huh?
你觉得你爱她吗？你甚至不了解她 You think you love her? You don't even know her.
这个地方他妈的都没有道德评判了！ I swear, the judgment on display in this fucking building!
要不来分享一下自己的过去吧？好 How about a little share circle, huh? Yeah.
丽姿 你告诉杰夫 你是犯了什么罪进来的 Why don't you tell Jeff what you're in for?
-我不在乎 -这就是爱 对吗？ -I don't care. -That's what love is.
了解彼此 我们来了解一下彼此 Getting to know each other. Let's get to know each other.
那不重要 她已经告诉过我了 Doesn't matter. She already told me.
-是吗？-抢劫 没什么了不起的 -Oh, did she? -Robbery. Big deal.
真的吗？丽姿 这是你跟他说的？ Really? Is that what you told him, Lizzy?
你未来的老公 你孩子的父亲 Your future husband, father of your kids.
应该让他知道真相 告诉他 快点 He deserves to know the truth. Tell him. Come on.
你不必说出来 You don't have to.
说呀 来 告诉他 Come on. Tell him.
说吧 丽姿 告诉他 Come on, Lizzy, tell him. Tell him.
不要？行 我来说 好吧？ No? All right, I'll do it. Okay?
没问题 你的档案就在这里 我们来看看 It's cool. I got your files right here. Let's, uh… Let's see.
好吧？我们来了解一下丽姿 Yeah? Let's find out about Lizzy.
-来了解一下彼此 -我不需要你来说 -Get to know each other. -I don't need you to.
-我知道我是谁 知道我做过什么 -伊丽莎白戴安哈里斯 -I know who I am and what I've done. -Elizabeth Dianne Harris.
出生于亚利桑那州普雷斯科特 Born in Prescott, Arizona.
-在集体生活之家长大 -我不用你说 我知道自己是谁… -Raised in a group home… -I don't need you to. I know who I am.
我知道自己是谁！我是一个杀死自己孩子的母亲 I know who I am! I'm the mother who killed her baby.
我就是这样的人 杰夫 That's who I am, Jeff.
我去上班 把自己的女儿 The mother who forgot her little girl in her car
忘在了停在沃尔玛停车场的车里 三个小时… at a Walmart parking lot in July for three hours…
当时是七月 while I went to work.
一个罪项 危害他人安全罪 一个罪项 过失杀人罪 One count, reckless endangerment. One count, manslaughter
杀死了我九个月大的女儿 of my nine-month-old little girl.
我自己的… My own…
我自己的亲骨肉 My own flesh and blood.
我不知道这是什么变态试验 Now, I don't know what kind of sick-ass experiment this is,
但是不管他要你对我做什么 来吧 我们开始吧 好吗？ but whatever he wants you to do to me, come on, let's get on with it, okay?
早点结束这个试验对我们大家都好 The quicker we get over with, it'll be better for all of us.
来吧 你伤害不了我 Come on, man. You can't hurt me.
你伤害不了我 You can't hurt me.
再大的痛苦都比不上每天早上醒来 There's no greater pain than having to wake up
发现她不在了 好吗？ every fucking morning without her. Okay?
我知道你觉得你爱我 And I know you think you love me,
但是我身上任何值得爱的地方 在很久以前都随她而去了 but anything in me worth loving died with her long ago.
所以来吧 开始吧 快点 给我注射 So, come on. Let's do it. Come on. Give it to me.
快点给我注射 Fucking give it to me.
给我注射！该死的 执行你的职责 杰夫！ Give it to me! Fucking do your job, Jeff!
给我注射！ Give it to me!
给我注射 Give it to me.
求你了 Please.
对不起 Sorry.
有什么好笑的？ What's so funny?
不… Uh, no…
她坐在里面 这整出戏 Her sitting in there, this whole thing,
你拿着那部手机 所有人都表现得很严肃 you with that phone, everyone acting all serious.
只有我觉得这很滑稽吗？ Is it just me who finds this amusing?
笑迎春
是的 Yeah.
只有你 -Only you.
马克没有生病 是吗？ -Mark's not sick, is he?
-把那个给我 -不给 -Give me that. -No.
别过来 你吓着我了 好吗？ Stop it. Stop it, you're scaring me, okay?
停下来 停 请不要伤害我 -Just stop. Stop. Please don't hurt me.
不要伤害我 好吗？ Don't… Don't hurt me. Okay?
阴郁剂 -Oh, fuck. Christ.
该死的 -Oh, fuck. Christ.
天啊… God…
马克对我的随身包动了手脚 Mark spiked my MobiPak.
没错 他清空了我的随身包 还给你加了阴郁剂 That's right. He emptied my MobiPak and gave you Darkenfloxx.
他现在正带着警察过来 He's coming back here right now with the police.
他怎么能这么做？ How could he?
他和我…你和我是… He and I… You and I were…
停下来！ Make it stop!
-要不要我给你点东西… -让它停下来！ -Can I get you something… -Make it stop!
…减轻你现在的感觉？ …for how you're feeling?
这是你问我的第一句话 That was the first thing you said to me…
你需要我们的同意 以进行你最重要的研究 …the acknowledgement that you needed for the most important study of them all.
-我们是怎么回答的？-同意！ -And what did we say? -Yes!
我们同意的是什么？ What were we saying yes to, huh?
我们每天都同意 注射进我们体内的到底是什么？ What were we agreeing to put in our bodies every single day?
B-6 -B-6.
它不会让你感觉快乐、饥饿或饥渴 It doesn't make you happy or hungry or horny.
而是会让你服从命令 It makes you do as you're told.
大笑、停止大笑 吃东西 停止吃东西 做爱、停止做爱！ "Laugh, stop laughing. Eat, stop eating. Fuck, stop fucking!"
你并不是在测试其他药物 你是在测试B-6 You weren't testing those other drugs. You were testing B-6.
是的 对不起 Yeah. Sorry. I'm sorry.
对不起 -I'm sorry.
你打算给它起什么名字？ What were you gonna call it?
那好吧 Fine then.
你打算给它起什么名字？ What were you going to call it?
从令如流 O-B-D-X.
从令剂 Obediex.
它确实有效 And it did work.
有效到能让你跟杀人凶手共同生活 但还不够拿到金星 为什么？ Enough for you to live amongst killers. But not enough for a gold star. Why?
B-6必须毫无瑕疵 B-6 had to be perfect.
目标并不是服从而已 The goal wasn't obedience.
而是绝对服从 无一例外 It was absolute obedience without exceptions.
我们必须知道 能否让人服从一个 We had to know, could we get you to follow an order
与他们最根本的价值观 及最深层的情感相违背的命令 antithetical to your deepest values and emotions.
做自己最不想做的事情 Do the very thing you'd least want to do in the world.
伤害自己所爱的人 Hurt someone you love.
B-6能够强迫别人重复 他们最后悔的那些行为 B-6 could force you to repeat the precise act you most regretted,
去伤害他人 伤害他们所珍视的人 to harm another, someone you held dear.
它能强迫任何人做任何事 It could force anyone to do anything.
我曾经信任你 I trusted you.
我们都把性命交给了你！ We trusted you with our lives!
你让我们对彼此做这些恶劣的事 You made us do all this shit to each other,
让我们以为是我们的选择 但其实是你的决定 thinking it was our choice, but it was yours.
你剥夺了我们的… You took away our--
你们的什么？自由意志吗 杰夫？ Your what? Your free will, Jeff?
天哪 自由意志 让你落入了什么下场？ Oh, God. Where did that get you, huh?
难道你不能想象吗？ Can't you picture it?
这个世界上的人唯命是从 A world filled with people who do as they're told.
我们将会是促进和平与和谐 We'd be selling peace and harmony itself.
有能力迫使人们 为了大多数人的利益而行动 The ability to compel people to act on behalf of the greater good.
让人们不是为所欲为 而是做应该做的事 Behave, not as they want, but as they damn well should.
再也没有醉驾车祸 再也没有老公杀死老婆 No more drunks crashing cars. Husbands killing wives.
没有被遗弃在夏令营的孩子 Kids left at summer camp.
那还有什么所谓？B-6失败了 What does it matter? B-6 failed.
我要你告诉全世界你对海瑟做的事 I want you to tell the world what you did to Heather.
天哪 我会坐牢的 我会完蛋 Man, I could go to… I could go to prison, it would ruin me.
我所建造的一切 我可能会坐牢的 杰夫 Everything I built. I could go to prison, Jeff.
杰夫和史蒂夫 我们俩没那么不同 Jeff and Steve. Not that different.
是 Yeah.
有什么好笑的？ What's so funny?
七个月前你就可以出狱了 You were free to go seven months ago.
而丽姿的上诉获得了很大的同情 And Lizzy, her appeal just fell on very sympathetic ears.
她一个星期前就自由了 She's been free for a week.
她要离开这里 今天就离开 She's walking out of here. Today.
把前门打开 Open the front door.
我会确保 你再也不能对任何人做这种事 I'm gonna make sure you never do this to anyone ever again.
把刀给我 Give me the knife.
我说…把它给我 I said… give it to me.
为什么？ Why?
因为我命令你给我 史蒂夫 Because I told you to, Steve,
因为我给你注射的B-6 足够让一头狮子都服服帖帖的 and because I put enough B-6 in your veins to tame a goddamn lion.
真的有效 对吧？ Really works, huh?
命令别人去杀死 他唯一爱过的事物时 就会无效 Not when someone has been told to kill the only thing he's ever loved.
这是我从你那里知道的 I learned that from you.
我给丽姿加了阴郁剂 四个药水瓶全都加了 I just Darkenfloxxed Lizzy. All four vials.
嘿 Hey.
没事了 你没事了 -It's okay. You're okay.
没事了 It's okay.
很对不起 I'm so… I'm so sorry.
为什么？ For what?
对不起我撒谎了 I'm sorry I lied.
丽姿 我爱你 Lizzy, I love you.
不管你说过或做过什么 都改变不了这一点 Nothing you said or did is gonna change that.
朋友们、邻居们 Friends and neighbors,
很抱歉打扰了 尤其是要告诉大家这样的消息 I'm sorry to interrupt, particularly with news like this.
有人企图逃走 We have an attempted escape.
你们大部分人都认识杰夫和丽姿 Most of you know Jeff and Lizzy.
你们大家都认识杰夫和丽姿 Most of you know Jeff and Lizzy,
他们误导了当局 警方正在赶过来 and it saddens me to my core that they have misled the authorities
这让我非常揪心 who are on the way here now.
我跟他们解释 那么做将会关闭这个项目 I explained that that would mean the end of the program
结束这个项目为我们大家 带来的舒适生活 但他们就是不听 and the comfortable life that it affords us all, but they wouldn't listen.
不要 Oh, no.
你们有谁想回州立监狱去吗？ Do any of you relish the thought of returning to State?
你们愿意做什么来阻止他们逃跑 What would you be willing to do to prevent that
以保住这个崇高的任务… to preserve the noble mission…
该死的！ Fuck!
…我们为之贡献了一生的任务？ …to which we've devoted our lives?
去他妈的！ Fucking piece of shit!
去阻止杰夫和丽姿 不是为了我 而是为了你们自己 Stop Jeff and Lizzy, not for me, for you.
临近警报
该死的！ Fuck!
搅屎棍？ Shit-finger?
我就知道是你 零食男 I knew it was you, snack man.
他们在这里！ There they are!
来啊 抓住他们 起来！快点！ -Come on, get 'em. Get up! Come on!
等等 戴夫 -Hold on, Dave.
我有食品贮藏室的钥匙 I have a key to the pantry.
里面的食物足够吃六个月 It has food in it for, like, six months.
太好了 谢谢 Awesome. Thanks.
AWD私人飞机 往北出发 Alpha Whiskey Delta, departing to the north.
AWD私人飞机 正在爬升 600米 -Alpha Whiskey Delta…
AWD私人飞机 正在爬升 600米 …on climb, 2,000 feet,
往东前往零号航道… heading east to track zero…
对不起 Sorry.
090… Zero-nine-zero…
前往零… Heading zero…
AWD私人飞机是否需要协助？ Alpha Whiskey Delta, that transmission was gargled.
AWD私人飞机是否需要协助？ Do you require any assistance?
去你的狗屁 Handle your… Handle your shit.
警察
AWD私人飞机 请确认意图 Alpha Whiskey Delta, confirm intentions.
监控显示 你正往西北方向飞去 315 We have you bearing northwest, 315, descending below 500 feet.
低于152米 是否听到？ We have you bearing northwest, 315, descending below 500 feet.
低于152米 是否听到？ Do you copy?
低于下滑道 撞地警告 -Glide slope. Pull up.
低于下滑道 撞地警告 Glide slope. Pull up.
真美 It's beautiful.
低于下滑道 撞地警告
在阳光下很舒服 Sun feels nice.
真希望有一种能让人原谅自己的药 I wish there was a self-forgiveness drug.
吃下去以后 一切就能重新开始 You take it and everything starts over.
你不会错待自己爱过的每一个人 Everyone you ever loved, you did right by them.
你珍重他们 而且你感觉好日子还在前头 Treated them like gold and you feel like it's all ahead of me.
这种美好的生活 它的所有乐趣 This beautiful life, all the pleasures of it.
我能够给予的爱 我能做的所有好事 The love I could give, the good I could do.
但是不存在这种药 But there's no drug like that.
所以我们必须为了自己而原谅自己 So, we're gonna have to do it for ourselves.